A POEM BY BEN PARKER - 20/1/17

 

Freedom is everything

A circle like a golden ring

I wish that I could shout and sing

The things you used to tell me

Now all I think about is

What are my elders tryna sell me

Trying to tell me about something

They’ve never tried or witnessed

Allow the youths to try fail and finesse

If we live how our elders did

We’ll never advance

Every day I look in the mirror

Like “how can I enhance?”

My day my week my month my year

Avenge every day I spent in my room

About to shed a tear

Over a family issue, natural tragedy or illness

The internet breaks my soul

I can barely taste the realness

 

Flood my senses with something

That I can’t receive through a screen

That makes me move from head to spline

That makes my soul feel clean

Despite my mind so Charlie Sheen

Im crazy on the inside

Got a city in my heart

But present myself like a calm village

We used to be friends with surname Illidge

Back when we were 5

Young and alive

Im still breathing

Still seething

But channel that energy like fibre optics

Give me the bigger picture

Not the cropped pics

With the boujee white girls

And the wild chicks

 

You can feel this needs a beat

Every verse would sound better

If it was backed by a note sheet

Im just tryna find my feet

As a roll down this hill ive climbed

Look at all these words ive rhymed

Im such a wise guy

I will never deny

That my friends have the best makeup

And my friend group never needs a shakeup

Everyone can stay in this Noahs Ark

That we built ourselves

Off of dreams and the make believe

The real ones die only the fake achieve

But that’s a pessimistic perspective

I believe our collective made a Heaven earth

And we’re not even religious

We just found our own way

To make all the good kids stay

And the broken kids lay

Their heads in piece at night thinking

“Fuck I love my friends so much”

How the fuck we make it work

This play was so clutch

So 50 50

Everything happens for a reason

Let your heart commit treason and

Fall in love with that girl you’ve been resisting

For way longer than necessary

Because you know she can give you everything

But its way too easy and you love to get your heart broke

You need a bad girl who will go and make it work without a choke

 

This got disgusting

Not sure why im discussing

What country I should vacate to

Should be way more invested in when

My next deadline is due

2017 is a busy year

Doubts kill more dreams than fear

Ever will

So don’t spill

Your heart all on the floor

Or your mind on the timeline

Just sit back and recline

Next to a friend that really matters

And tell them it all until you cry

And those salty tears splatter

On the concrete beneath you

Whilst the stars above you crown you

And sooth your mental

From that day on

Don’t be afraid to get experimental

Do that wild shit

You were always scared to do

Because those dreams and thoughts

Could materialise and define you

So what are you to do huh

So what are you to do huh.